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The Last Stroke of the Final Note

Finding space to channel offerings available to us as we transition through new shifts and seasons, ain’t all that visible, and not because we ain’t looking. Thus, we first have to imagine ourselves being with ourselves long enough to sync our breaths. This morning, as I, with you, experience being moved by elemental (re)arrangements, the deep desire to remain in close proximity to the heartbeat of love, joy, peace, purpose, fulfillment, challenge, rest, etc; to know it’s still real… is felt BIG TIME! In the embrace of what is now, shall we keep close, in our medicine bags, the rhythmic, spell-casting language that opens and (re)balance OUR energy centers. I offer us this lyrical wisdom from Toni Morrison as we all experience our personal endings…

(Image credit: Jill Krementz)

The One Out of Sequence /Anne Koenen 1980

Motha’ Toni’s wisdom: 

“There is an ending that is an ending, you just see it, it just closes. And happy and unhappy is irrelevant, you just know that something has come full circle, something has clicked, a door is shut. Life is like that… I want to get as close to that as possible, a kind of breathless stop in the fall. You don’t know on any day whether what’s happening to you is the most important thing. So you just go along with it. 

It’s sort of like a painting in a way. There’s a moment at which it’s finished, now there’s the possibility that another stroke, you know, might make it more acceptable… Or even in music, you know, it closes and leaves you something. Knowing that, you’re prepared for the close, and whether it shakes you or quiets you, depends on what the thing was itself. 

It was a kind of cry. 

…you open a door, you have to close the door. And it’s hard. But I always know the endings, because I feel that, I know it. And I really thought that this love story which was going to be just terrific, you know– real love between two attractive people, and you want them to fall in love– I just knew they’d go off into the sunset. They haven’t yet. I don’t strive for sad endings, and I don’t strive for obscure ones. I just know that’s it, and anything I write after that would be another book” (p. 83).

What book are you writing next?

I love you,

ParKer Bryant

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